#StrayThought No.0716

Sometimes I just want to disappear.

Sometimes I wish a door would appear behind my closet and take me to a strange place with weird-colored flowers or talking rabbits.

Maybe I'd eventually feel bored. I'd miss the internet and funny videos I saved, I'd miss my random Spotify playlists, dining with my family, or hanging out with my friends.

But sometimes it seems nice to think of the possibility--no matter how low the odds are--if one could choose to evaporate and disappear into thin air when they have nowhere to escape to. Like saying the 'obliviate' spell and then disappear from everyone's memories in an instant.

Would it be liberating? To be able to escape the questions, expectations, and the need to explain that one's okay though never actually feels like it?

Or would it be lonely?

But come to think about it, loneliness doesn't seem so bad if one's been in and out of it their whole life.